My Journey: Another day in Pearlington 10/19/06

Well another day has come and gone. I went and got my flu shot today. This town is changing day to day. I don't know where the people are getting the $$ or the help but just around me there are 4 to 5 brand new houses being built. I'm beginning to think because I don't have a bunch of kids to get the help, or what it is. I am disabled but I guess I have to be 70 or 80 before anybody will help me because of my disabilities. Most of these people had shacks before the storm and they're the ones getting brand new houses! I just don't understand it. I guess thats just the way it is. The corp of engineer wanted me to demolish my trailer, maybe I should have. Then if I have nothing maybe somebody will help me? I just don't know. I do know I'm getting very tired and just about ready to give up on it all. It just is very depressing and it's the same stuff day after day. And there seems to be no end in sight. And the grant we're suppost to get is going to take a very long time. The people in phase 1 haven't gotten their grant yet. And I'm in phase 2. I've got some new web sites I'll be adding to my blog. I just have to go thru my notes and find them. Oh one of them is the youth group from Felton ,California. They're the ones that helped gut my trailer. A great bunch of young people! I still keep in touch with a few of them, one young lady , Bree and I became friends right away. They bought my dog a stuffed monkey toy. This is their web address: http://www.feltonpresbyterian.org/youth.htm They are suppost to be coming back on Dec.26th. I hope to see them !!! Well I'm hoping some of them that helped me before will come and I'll be able to see them ! I hope they're prepared to see my home in the same condition as when they left here after gutting it. Nothing has been done to it since then. Except I did finally get it put back on the blocks, so that is a big difference than when it was on the ground !! .........God Bless.............

My Journey: Just another day: August10,2006

This is a bank vault! It was all that was left, Katrina took the rest.This is on Coleman Ave. in Waveland. Anyway I noticed in the Pearlington Blog that they are putting other families to adopt in there besides only people that have been volunteers here. They're finally putting older disabled people. Which I think is great. I wish I could work. I'd love to have a job and money to repair my trailer. I worked all my life, since I was 13 years old. Until 1995, when I hurt my back, I was 41 at the time, i had 2 back surgies, one in 1996 and one in 1998. I live in cronic pain everyday, and I have to take strong medications to be able to cope with everyday things. I have Glaucoma. I have Diabetes. I have High Blood Pressure. I have every disk in my neck messed up but the bottom one, and don't want surgery on it. I am in remission for my breast cancer which I had surgery , chemo, and radiation in 2002. And am still having trouble with that breast. And have to take a pill everyday for 5 years. In 2005 I had Carpol Tunnel surgery on my right hand, was suppost to get it on my left, but thanks to Katrina never did. What else??? I hope and pray nothing !! But no one at the recovery center has asked me about my disabilities. I guess cause I can get around, and I'm not 70 or 80 years old. It really used to make me mad. When I was going thru radiation, I was so burned that I couldn't even put my arm down. People would ask " How are you?" Well you look good. And the same thing when I was going thru chemo. Well you look good ! Looks are very deceiving, because you sure don't feel good inside. I wouldn't wish chemo on my worst enemy. Or the pain that I live in every day. I don't want people to feel sorry for me. I'd like people to know and understand how I feel. I've been in pain every day of my life since March 25, 1995, and it gets old, and really sucks..................... ............................................................................................ I read in the paper today that the man in Diamondhead died. The man that his wife poured the boiling grease on him. He died last Friday. That is really sad. They still haven't found her. Now she's wanted for murder....Update: she turned herself in ...................................................
There was also a big article about the anniversary of Katrina. It said its going to effect alot of people. And if you need somebody to talk to they're going to have hotlines open for people to talk to someone. It said especially don't be alone on that day. Go to a professional if you need to. Like a shrink !!! I think most of us need more than a shrink !!........God Bless........................