My Journey: Sept.15,2006:another day in Ptown...

Well, well.......... I just don't know anymore........i don't know how much longer this can keep going on? I can't sleep, haven't slept for a few days. It seems like my body would want to sleep. When I'm sleeping I'm not having to face this nightmare. I just have nightmares in my sleep. So don't know which one is the worst. And the constant jumping in my sleep, like I'm falling, it wakes me up, scares the ____ outta me. I just can't take anymore. Something has to give , I pray that something happens. I need my life back. Dammm Katrina for taking my life. It wasn't a great life, but it wasn't a bad life either. Better than this living hell hole. Sorry , just venting. So much has been on my mind. I think of things that are gone now, I can never get back. Christmas tree ornaments my son made me in kindergarden. A turkey hand card his little hand drew for me when he was in kindergarden too. All my pictures of things thru my whole life. Cards I've gotten for mother's day, or my birthday, or Christmas. The special things I can never replace. But I guess really I'll have them always in my heart. I don't care about clothes, that I never wore anyway. Or the 20 pair of boots I could no longer wear because they had heels { like cowboy boots}, and heels hurt my back and legs. And all the junk that just collected dust. I wish I'd taken more stuff with me, but then I think , "STUPID" it woulda just burnt up in the R.V. fire with everything else. I had a bran-new pair of nice warm leather boots we'd just bought in Crossville, Tenn. I'd never worn not one time. A bran-new jacket. Bran-new jeans, and shirts. Now if and when I ever get me another home, I will not clutter it with nonsense. And my wardrobe will only be clothes I fit in and wear! I have got to get another camera !! We got a cold front last night! It was 65* around 5:00am this morning. Wow, I wish it would last and stay like this. Does anybody like to play internet games? I play at: www.pogo.com it's a great game site, alot of different games. They have tournments in just about every game. It's alot of fun! At least it's something to occupy my mind. Well I'm going to rest. God Bless............................

My Journey: August 16, 2006: another day........

<- store in La. just over state line.

Yesterday I looked at the MSN homepage. There was a link on there for msnbc. They are doing a special report on two towns in Mississippi. The towns are BaySt.Louis and Waveland. Which they are about 15 miles east of Pearlington. Pearlington is right on the coast just before the Louisiana state line. When you leave Pearlington going west, if you go over the green bridge your in Louisiana. In fact there was a small store there until Katrina hit, and they called it Pearlington, La. Slidell,La. is about 10 miles west of us. Alot of people even from this area don't know where Pearlington is. I think they get it confused with Pearl River County, La. Thats why we have so much trouble being recognized here. This town has been over looked bad by the government, especially Fema. I'm so glad that God has sent his Children, our brothers and sisters here to help us. If it wasn't for them I"d hate to think what shape we'd still be in. Which alot of us still are but I know they can only do so much. Most of them have so much compassion. You can feel it and see it in them and know they do by the things they do for us. Laurie the manager at the Pearl Mart is from N.Y. and has been here since Feb. {I think} She works her fingers to the bone. 24...7.. she is working. And 2 residents from here are the managers also. The Red Cross left us, and they were going to shut the Recovery Center down. Thats when the residents stepped up and said they'd take it over. Or it would be closed now. Our town is unincorporated. We don't have a mayor or nothing. So I guess the decisions around here are made by the three of them???? So it's up to them to decide who gets the help around here and who doesn't get any help??? !!!I'm going to try to put the link for them in here today. Ha, I'm not real great on some stuff, kinda learn as I go. When I first got a computer back in 2000, I taught myself, I cheated tho I bought the book for Dummies !! LOL But it helped me alot. I'd went to school back in 79-81 for Computer Tech... thats when my mom died, and my world fell apart. { the 1st. time} OK, here it is http://www.pearlington.blogspot.com thats for the recovery center. Now I want to give you one for the msnbc article, which has some great pictures too, Ok, here it is: http://risingfromruin.msnbc.com/stories.html I hope I can still interest you all who ever might be reading this. I know their stories will be alot more interesting . There are alot of other survivor stories there that are just amazing. I have some Katrina experiences that happened to my friends that stayed here during the storm. There were 4 families that stayed that live on my street. My street only has I think 12 families on it. They are alot braver than I was to stay here. I think if I'd stayed I'd be dead right now.Will would have been sleeping because he worked nights, and I would have totally freaked out. Everybody that stayed had to climb trees, get on roofs, get in boats. Whatever they could do. And they all say one minute the water was 1" and the next minute you were swimming. And they said snakes, deer, alligators, rats, spiders, racoons, dogs, big cockroaches, fish, any animal imaginable was in the trees and water with them. Good God it gives me goose bumps just thinking about it. I'm glad the eye of Katrina came in the day time. I think if it had came at night there would have been alot more people killed...............God Bless...............

My Journey: another day August 15,2006

<- volunteers from N.Y.

I've came many miles on this Journey, but still have many more to travel....................................
I wish all my pictures hadn't burned up in the R.V. fire. I had alot of good ones from the days right after the hurricane. I also had a few thousand pictures on my old computer that got flooded. I even put the tower up on top of the desk, but it didn't do much good cause the desk flipped over. BOOHOO!! Well I had alot of things that meant the most in my life to me that got burnt up. Everything I'd packed and took with me when I left home on the 28th. of Aug, 2005. Oh well as much as I want to I can't bring any of it back. It all still feels like a dream. It seems too impossible for it to have happened. I still have nightmares about it all. And with the year anniversary coming up makes it even worse. I raised fancy guppies and sold them to a pet store in Slidell. I had so many pregant ones and little babies that all died in the salt water. When my trailer filled with water they all just swam out of their aquariums and then died. I had 3 aquariums. I loved all my fishes. The aquarium in my bedroom was under my bed along with one of my dressers. You know that water had to be some kind of bad to move things around like that. I couldn't open my laundry room door, or the 2nd. or 3rd. bedroom door or the other bathroom door. Stuff was moved around and jammed against the doors. Pots in my cabinets were still filled with water. The volunteers that emptied my trailer poured the water out of alot of stuff. Those volunteers were from N.Y. They were a great bunch of people. The second set of volunteers that came and gutted my trailer were Presbyterian Church youth group from Felton California. They were a great bunch of kids, they worked really hard too. And it was terribly hot. I am so grateful to them all. I hope if they do come to the reunion I'll get to see them. I hope they will come by to see me. Well I'm going to lay back down and try to get some more rest. I woke awhile ago hurting and I had a terrible nightmare. God Bless...................................... This picture was taken from outside looking into my bedroom. Thats a king size bed, and it had to float up because of my dresser with the mirror on it and my 20 gallon aquarium was underneath it.I think also one of my night stands was under it too. The mirror on my dresser never cracked. I kept my bed frame, I hope I can paint it or something to be able to use it again. It was beautiful, its called "Pineapple" on top of the 4 posters there was a big pineapple carved in the wood. I had to throw away all the rest of the set, the drawers warped and it was a big mess.........God Bless..........................................................